soooo after eating 415 yesterday i went a little bit psycho and binged. i probably consumed around 1100 cals, pretty freaking gross. i tried to purge but only a tiny bit came up, which has never happened to me before. my body was like FEED MEEEE and i finally gave in. i could barely sleep because my stomach hurt. THIS BLOWS. so this morning i'm up 3 pounds from yesterday. UGHHH. i just want to be in the 120's, i feel like there is a huge difference between being in the 120's and the 130's. i'm thinking that maybe i should try and stay in the 600-800 cal range instead of eating around 400. maybe then i wont get super hungry and binge out of control.

lovelovelove.

whoaa it's been literally less than 24 hours since i've been on here and there are 2359082390532 new posts....i wanna sit here and read them lol but i have to go to french classsss EWWW. 

basically yesterday was really good...all i had was half a luna bar until 10:30 at night when i smoked and munched out . ahhhhhhh. at least it was on healthy food.

so today:

1/2 luna bar (90)
veggies (113)
1/2c lean cuisine noodle stuff (100)
sugar free apple sauce (50)

so 353 all together....not SO bad but i hate having the munchies and just wanting to eat everything in sight
oh and i gymmed and burned 300 cals

PS i went to the doctor to get birth control and they weighed me and i was 131!!!! sooo yay i lost 3.5 pounds. 



so far today:

omlet
1/4 c. egg beaters-30
1 tbsp. mozz. cheese- 20
1 slice ham-10

 total 60 so far

i will probably eat a massive apple later today, depending on whether or not i go out. there's a formal at this frat tonight and this boyyyy apparently wants to take me...and he's been telling everyone EXCEPT ME. omg i wish he would just grow a pair and call me GOD DAMMIT. and i have a really cute dress i could possibly wear. ANYWAY, you all have heard enough of me rambling....PEACE OUTTTT